Finally I am out of study-jail. Liberated and free. Sense of coming out of Hibernation feeling. After 2+ Months of Slogging skin and studying for atleast couple of hrs daily, I managed to clear the JAIIB exam (the exam which I remember in my life for its simple questions but killing, notorious answer choices which really made each cell of my brain to get up and start putting in some effort to bail me out of the battle field of this exam. I bet some of the cells in my brain had worked for the first time since their birth, given that I had never faced this kind of killing objective questions) I feel like I’m free now…. A feeling which actually is so great for short time.

I would like to re-quote what Abhinav Bindra had to say after winning Gold in Olympics for India. “I feel like there is absolute emptiness now. When you achieve your goal in life and reach the top where you had dreamt off, you feel like there is nothing more to get in life. Nowhere to reach now.” Well I am really not trying to tell that I’ve achieved something greatest of sort. Never. Hundreds of people pass this exam and so have I. nothing great. But I feel that the statement is true very much. I too felt same for a while (couple of hours atleast) after I finished my last exam. The joy, exciteness, what comes at that moment is something which will not come very often.

All I want to say here is that it is just because of the greatness of God, the blessings of God, the blessings of my Mother, the well wish of my close friends are the real driving force behind this success. My Previous TL Seshu (who is in Onsite now), Ravindra are the people in my office who I would like to mention here for their direct and indirect support. This success is just the timely synchronization of everything. Hard work of mine(if any) comes last in the line.

At this moment I would like to restrict myself and don’t want to stretch anymore here since I fear whether I boast a lot about myself. As I always say, we can’t be totally flaw-less in life. We are always in process of correcting ourselves till the last day in life. So is me. I might not want to say anything great about me, but unknowingly the excite ness inside me might compel me to say something of that sort. So I have to leave everything to time here. Joy, Happiness,Sorrow,sadness everything diminishes with time. So may be after a couple of days when I settle down, and come back to normal, I will write more and share more about life.

Finally I am out of study-jail. Liberated and free. Sense of coming out of Hibernation feeling. After 2+ Months of Slogging skin and studying for atleast couple of hrs daily, I managed to clear the JAIIB exam (the exam which I remember in my life for its simple questions but killing, notorious answer choices which really made each cell of my brain to get up and start putting in some effort to bail me out of the battle field of this exam. I bet some of the cells in my brain had worked for the first time since their birth, given that I had never faced this kind of killing objective questions) I feel like I’m free now…. A feeling which actually is so great for short time.

I would like to re-quote what Abhinav Bindra had to say after winning Gold in Olympics for India. “I feel like there is absolute emptiness now. When you achieve your goal in life and reach the top where you had dreamt off, you feel like there is nothing more to get in life. Nowhere to reach now.” Well I am really not trying to tell that I’ve achieved something greatest of sort. Never. Hundreds of people pass this exam and so have I. nothing great. But I feel that the statement is true very much. I too felt same for a while (couple of hours atleast) after I finished my last exam. The joy, exciteness, what comes at that moment is something which will not come very often.

All I want to say here is that it is just because of the greatness of God, the blessings of God, the blessings of my Mother, the well wish of my close friends are the real driving force behind this success. My Previous TL Seshu (who is in Onsite now), Ravindra are the people in my office who I would like to mention here for their direct and indirect support. This success is just the timely synchronization of everything. Hard work of mine(if any) comes last in the line.

At this moment I would like to restrict myself and don’t want to stretch anymore here since I fear whether I boast a lot about myself. As I always say, we can’t be totally flaw-less in life. We are always in process of correcting ourselves till the last day in life. So is me. I might not want to say anything great about me, but unknowingly the excite ness inside me might compel me to say something of that sort. So I have to leave everything to time here. Joy, Happiness,Sorrow,sadness everything diminishes with time. So may be after a couple of days when I settle down, and come back to normal, I will write more and share more about life.

After a looooooooooooooooooooooooooooong time I’m back to my think tank site.

Really I’ve developed a serious problem of memory shortage. I tend to forget so many things. For each and every thing I write down the task to be done on my desk using a whiteboard marker so that I don’t forget it. This has lead my friends to make fun of me saying I’m turning out to be a la “Ghajini” the short term memory loss prone guy(well, I don’t know whether it is a good critic or not ;) )I hope I can recover from this problem soon. No idea as such how I can help cure myself. Well what was I talking about all this while…???? Oh ya, short term memory loss….. J

Before the power goes off now, let me quickly list the main imp things that happened in this gap……….. hmmm… if there is anyone who doesn’t believe in coincidence in life I request them to challenge me in what happened just now. The moment I wrote the first sentence of this paragraph, the power went off. But there are several things which I want to list and hence was pulled back to write from where I stopped before the power cut.

I attended a training conducted for one banking certification by my company. The faculty Mr.Manjunath was Chief Manager, Security division, SBM, B’lore. He had 28 years of experience in the field of banking. I am still unable to recover from that awesome lecture class. He was really an ocean of knowledge. By rough estimate, his age could be somewhere in the range of 55-60. But the thrust he had to share knowledge, to contribute to the field of banking is really matchless. When he entered the training room I was like “oh-no-not-another-oldie-lecture”, but I was ashamed of myself when I saw his enthusiasm to teach, to encourage us fire question at him… no, I cant really explain the brilliance that he was. I want to record here that I’m happy to have answered a question thrown by him at class. The question was a real incidence that he had faced in his banking life and he asked us to apply the banking laws to solve the problem. I was able to answer that and was really happy to see the sparkle in his face once I answered it. That was really a moment I will savor in my life. Apart from Mr. Manjunath, there was one more faculty Mr. Nagaraj who is a professor in Christ college in the dept of Accountancy who handled the Accountancy class. He too was a class of his own.

A significant change happened in me. I’ve started admiring Sachin Tendulkar and Sonu Nigam thanks to my friend who helped me understand what a real gem they are. Well though I was not a critic of them, I never took pain to understand what they are actually. Both have contributed to their respective field in their own ways and I hope they will continue to contribute in still huge way in years to come. Congrats sachin for scoring 40th test century against the bullish Aussies, teach those dogs good lessons in years to come. Sonu, I’m awestruck by your new song “Phir Milenge” in Rub Ne Bana De Jodi.

Last week I was attending a mark-your-attendance kind of call for my project. My onsite coordinator was chatting about the project and after a short gap she suddenly started telling about how happy she was for Barack Obama for becoming the president of America after winning the elections. She shared all the pains her fellow Americans are going through because of the economic slowdown in America, the fruit or child of George Bush’ ill fated Economic policies of 8years. She didn’t had any shyness to even say that she had tears in her eyes after seeing the results. At this point I got a question which any Indian citizen above 10 years of age and with average IQ will get “Do we have at least 10% of such emotional attachment towards our nation?” Let me not continue further, I will fall into the world’s highly dirty stinking drainage called “INDIAN POLITICS”.
Hey and it was my birthday on Nov 9th. I completed 23 years of orbiting around the SUN. It was really God given boon for me to having visited two famous temples on this day, the Nimishamba temple near Srirangpattana and Melukote Temple near Mandya. We spent the whole day traveling in our car, with my Dodamma. Lots of friends called to wish me. The day ended with a treat from my Aunt in a posh hotel.

How can I ever forget this incidence that happened just a couple of days back. We were sending a chain mail to our group of 4friends. Suddenly I felt like playing prank and replied to that mail from my friend’s mail id that serious actions will be taken for sending such chain mails. Gosh!!! One of the friend in group Shilpa was so scared that she really got too much terrified. I, a dumb guy still couldn’t understand her emotion and still added the salt to the wound saying that I discussed the issue with my senior teammate and they told that a senior manager will take us to task for having done this. “THE END” “SHUBHAM” The story ended there. She disconnected the call when I told her that I played the prank. Consequence – No talk for 2days. Later she recovered and the next day she explained how critically sentimental girl she is and pleaded not to do such things in future. Man I still didn’t understand why she got scared so much. To that she gave one small example, she has the CD of the movie Mungaru Male (Block buster movie in Kannada). Every time she visits her home she will make it a point to watch that movie full at least once and each time she will cry at the climax. This was really enough for me to go mad. I asked her to stop. And fell into the ocean of thinking, “good to meet and talk as many people as possible in your life, you will get to know, see and feel the diversity of Nature’s creation”

As i was walking down the stairs from Caffe to my place back alone today evening in my office, i saw my image against the tinted glass of the Giant window. The Photo ID cum Security access card was hanging and swinging from my neck as i took the each step downwards. Soon I was lost in memories of my college days a year back around same time. Way back then, the only mission and dream in my life was to travel to my office in big bus bearing the name of the IT company with the photo ID hanging around my neck.(The SRK of Swades movie contributed more to this fascination of mine).
Switch to current day scenario. I hate to hang it on my neck in mrng while getting down the shuttle. So much so that i wait till i reach the gate of the office before wearing that. And will remaove it the moment i step out of huge glass doors(not even wait till i reach the Gates). All that Corporate proffesional dreams seems to be stupid now. Whatever i wanted to acheive is almost available now at my disposal. But i never seem to thank the God, the almighty who i requested way back then at the time of placements in my college to give me an opprtunity to work in my dream world.Never, as far as i remember from the day i joined the company i.e 1-8-08 till today, i've not bothered to even mention a easiest syllable "THANKS" to the almighty.
Why? The innocent answer that i can give here is that i stumbled upon this question only today and so may be in a couple of days i shld be ready with the answer. Jokes apart, the seriousness that the question has pushed me into is quite high. Though it is true that we should not be content with whatever we acheive in our life ( I dont know the person but i still remember his famous line "The day u r content about your acheivement, think that u r dead"), it doesn't means that we should forget the GOD who hears our prayers and grants our wishes. There might be several reasons for me to hate wearing the Company badge or even work there. But i shouldn't forget that it was my own wish to be working in a reputed firm which earns me not only bread and butter but also the much needed stuff in INDIA, the "Social Respect". The current global finacial crisis has brought so many people and industries to Road, but we are totally insulated from this impact, thanks to the almighty for placing us in such institution.
I had thanked god profusey after getting placed. I visited so many temples in just a couple of days after getting placed. That's it. There i closed my chapter of acknowledging God for his help. Tata Bye Bye said my subconcious mind a couple of months later. From the day i joined the company, ther was one issue above the another, and the time factor which together decided to insulate my brain from thinking about acknowledging the Lord who had granted my wish exactly an year ago. My brain was made bad condouctor of conscience.
This sudden fall into the ocean of memories in the evening made me realise my mistake. It is time now to thank the Lord, the unseen divine Force, the almighty, the guardian of every living and non-living being (and which doesn't comes under either of the classification) of this entire creation. Thank You my Dear Lord. Thanks a lot for granting my wish and making me a true proffesional. Kindly Continue to bless me in all my future endeavours. Give me strength and dedication to disperse my work at the best way without any flaws and help me grow humanly, responsibly, financially, mentally and never again make me forget to wish you for granting any small wish of mine in my life. THANK YOU VERY VERY VERY MUCH.

Long time after I’m visiting my blog page. Nice to be here. Nice to c my thoughts being penned down and collected stored and preserved safely.

Yesterday, two things happened worth to be mentioned here.

We buyed the microwave Oven atlast. It was a long cherished dream (well…. 3 Months Old to be precise) to own a MW oven. Finally after ransacking my pocket and looting the precious hard earned money of 5 grands from it, and adding another 5.8 grands to it from my ma’s treasury, we got one beautiful SAMSUNG Convection + MW oven. Feels good to see that in Kitchen(with same amount of bad feeling when I look at my bank balance). I tried and experimented a bit on it till 11 in night.

One more thing was that we went to watch this Dance jatre at chitrakala parishat near Hotel Ashoka. Man, such an absolute beauty it was. The way they performed group dance was absolute brilliance. I was so spellbound that I was just standing there without even tilting my neck to any directing even by minutest angle that can be recorded by any sophisticated device on earth. Really, I’m not exaggerating this. What you can learn from that group dance performance is that, the tuffest part in life is to learn team work. You can be a master in any art. Performing that solo is very different than group performance. This applies to all aspects of our life. Take any minor to major examples in life, you will be really surprised to find that it applies to all of them. That too what amazed me a lot is that none of them were looking at each other while dancing, still such a sync was there between all of them!!!!!!!!!! This is really heights I would say. For a person like me who was bought up by just studies, fun etc., I seriously felt that I could have tried my hands on any similar art like this.

The programme has left a huge impact on my mind. Really I’ve decided to watch such kind of stuff in future whenever I get a chance. Let me enjoy the art if not practice it and learn the virtues from it.

Well last but not the least, the day ended with me roasting some peanuts in the new oven. Yum it was. And I was issued a notice by the honorable Judge “Ms. MA” of the supreme court of our House that, from here onwards I should cook the rice whenever her majesty is out on some work. Otherwise the punishment would be no food for that day!!!!!

When I read my post on my experience in a particular interview, I had suggested people to give rude answers. But I was laughing after reading it. Before making such a kind of suggestion, I should have adviced that we sould see how the interviewer is while answering first few questions. And if we really feel that he is worth of getting rude reply then only start with it. Never start giving rude replies right when you go and sit in front of the person. that’s y I had mentioned that I would come back and add the points to the post as and when I feel.

When I talk to my fellow friends and colleagues, I feel so bad that I’m not really helping them out to plan their investments. Believe me, if anyone of u asks me “what’s harm in paying Tax of some 500 bucks per month? Why bother about investments?” I can give u shocking stats to show how much u guys will b loosing by keeping your “HARD EARNED” money in bank without touching it and being happy to look at the balance increase month by month. Actually why the Govt charges tax is to create a sense of investment awareness in us.

I always remember my dad telling to me and mom that how much he repents for not having invested any thing at the beginning of his career though he was working for insurance company itself. A small fact will put light on importance of investing. If u invest in say a kind of insurance policy which will give u fixed returns of say 3k per year from 3rd year of your investment (for once in a 3 years upto 12 or 15 years etc… depending on term selected), you have made your hard earned money to earn money by itself for you.( ya I kno u wil tel me that the amount in A/c will earn interest. That is nothing but a eye wash. Bank earns some fortune by lending your money on loans to its customers and pays u menial amount. I can say almost nothing). Not only that. At the end of term say 12 years, suppose if you had invested 15k (at beginning), 15-12 = 3k will be retuned to you at the end of term plus a bonus of 10k so totally you got 25k for 15 k. and u r also insured(for your life) for that period. Imagine you have some urgent requirement of money after 12years. suddenly if this amount comes in your place when u least expect it, don’t u get excited at that moment? I know 13k(bonus + 3k) wont carry same value after 12 years as it is now. But if u r in need of some 30k at that moment after 12 years, 13k has come without any effort. Plus you have saved the tax also. This is just one small example. You can plan your investment in such a way that by putting money in a combination of 3 to 4 products you can start earning every year.

But i dont explain this to many of my freinds. Hardly i get chance and time(both mine or theirs) to explain them. And since we came out of College jst a year back, still the sense of responsibility, investment awareness etc are not created yet. People like to enjoy their free time instead of scratching their heads on the maths of investment. In worst case, people drop to level of asking me whether i get any comission for thier investment.

in my case, why i've this sense of investment is because i have grown up looking at people coming to home with meager earnings per month asking dad to suggest some policies which can make them lead an independent and happy life later on. So this was natural to me.

Planning for future is not easy. We have the devil residing inside ourselves which constantly brainwashes us saying why care abt future when we earn so much and have so much of amount lying in Account. Friends, we know how expensive the days have become. If anything serious happens or if we feel sudden need of money for something, your bank balance will be nothing but a joke in front of the situational need. I’m not saying we should’ve zero bank balance. But it shouldn’t be greater than 20k at the max.

When I faced the interview for one of companies which came to our college ( I don’t want to mention the name of the IT company since I would be giving publicity for that company free of cost in my webpage :-) ) I was repeatedly asked one question by the psycho interviewer (say X). and the question was “why you are changing your field from Mech to IT?”

I tried giving him lots of polite answers though I kept on cursing him within myself since it was none of his business to know about my decisions. But that psycho seemed to be really very obsessed with it. He was not at all satisfied with any answers I gave. Absolute mental torture it was. I would have happily walked out if had let me go. But no, he kept on asking me to give a solid reason.

So friends, all of you who face any kind of interviews, please answer in such a way as to give an impression to the interviewers that you never care whether u get the job or not. Answer in such a way that the job is not the end of road for u, this is not the sole earner of Roti kapda aur makaan for you (though it might be in most of the situations).

What I could’ve told is that, I might be changing the field, but I still will be an engineer only by education. I was fascinated by the automobiles, machines etc stuff and wanted to know the funda behind them and so went and took this field of engg though in my mind I wanted to be a s/w engineer only when I start my career. If u r interested in studying, then age is really not a barrier at all. My relatives who are there in the S/w field always used to say that no tech/language being used in the industry is tuff or hard nut kind of thing which u cant crack. Spend some time strictly on reading abt that tech for an hour an day and u will master it. Moreover most of the stuffs what we read in CS branch wont be required to be applied to work there hence a CS student wont get Head start as we might feel. So I went ahead with my desire to crack two birds at a time and took Mech Brach and kept my target to get into S/w field after my course.

I don’t know whether the above answer sounds too rude or anything. But if it sounds rude also, don’t care. The above might not have been ur actual aim. But the above answer was just an example to tell how to lie the answers as if it was the real answer. Confidence is the key. As we all know( we means those who have 1+ years of exp, since I belong to that category now), confidence is what matters most. Because in this industry u wont know what the situation will be next day in your work. There would be no work for few days in stretch and suddenly some problem comes up in your way when you least expect it. And you should be ready to face it and overcome it. What is required is a dish called “CONFIDENCE” with essential ingredients such as patience, problem solving skills, calmness in mind and not any knowledge of FAFL, compiler design, Networks (Subjects of CS).

The same confidence counts here in Interview also. If you let them create dominance on you by giving you an impression that u r not answering up to the mark, it is pure indication of lack of confidence. Be natural. If he says “no this is not right I guess”, feel free to reply back as “and I think this is absolutely right since I’ve been living with myself i.e my body, my soul, and brain from past 23 years”. Ya it is true you wont get so much of guts to tell it in front of him directly. So better practice such answers in front of mirror so many times that u feel confident.

Remember :- “ IF YOU DON’T BELIEVE IN YOURSELF, NOBODY ELSE WILL”

I will come back to this topic as and when I feel like adding my thoughts on it.

I actually wanted to discuss abt this topic on Engineers day. But as I’ve mentioned in the blog on that day, I had to change the topic due to circumstances.

When i look at this world 50-100 years ago and put my brain in the job of thinking and realizing how and where we are now, it gives me both joy and sorrows. And the former being more. Of course in terms of advancement in science and Tech we have achieved a lot. We have all the things at our hands now to aid us in leading a easy life. But all these things which we have created for helping us in leading easy life really friendly and helpful as we really think?

I might list a lot of things here. But for all of them, the root cause remains same- “POPULATION EXPLOSION”. I’ll explain why. Oops… I need not explain rather….

Man started to invent the things as and when he found the need. Bulb was invented to fight darkness, electricity- to help industrialise, vehicles- for mobility etc. Like the famous proverb “Necessity is the mother of all inventions”, man’s day to day needs forced him to invent the things which would help him in doing those jobs. The funniest thing to be noticed here is that as we invent one thing say X we had to invent one more thing say Y to either aid X or to neutralize the ill effect of X. for example when vehicles like Motor car were invented, immediately there was need to lay out roads connencting diiferent places and to lay out roads, materials like Tar and all had to be discovered. The list grows on like this.

And finally we had to invent medicines to counter the ill effect of poisonous gas emission of the vehicle. This is just an example. A most simplest one of all. So my question is are we really happy after inventing so many stuffs to lead a comfortable life?

I can debate on this topic started by myself. But I would jst mention the ill effects here. Will not talk about the other side i.e good effects (if any) of the technological advancement. Of course we are not happy. We are just leading a compromised life. Will u believe me if I say that in pre-independence era, there was hardly 10 bicycles parked in commercial street of B’lore during day time. People used to walk freely on roads. No honking horns, traffic snarls, jams, pollution etc. only walking people all around. What about today? Absolute chaos.

Such a stressfull life we are leading. We have so many means to stay connected with our friends, near and dear ones. But hardly we get time to make a simple call and speak to them. But in those days? People used to walk miles long to reach to their dear ones. We have so many sophisticated super speciality hospitals. But what about the average life of a human being? Coming down day by day. But in those days there were hardly any clinics around. So many colleges have come up, but hardly imparts any quality education. With each and every invention man has complicted his life.

As I go on listing the above symptoms of advancement in technology, I find there is no end for this. It is infinite. But I want to discuss what has to be done now. We are absolutely heading towards destruction without any doubt. Only thing we have to do now is to do our job best as to not to harm anyone in anyway. It is true that we cant always remain in touch with our dear ones like how we used to. But at least make sure that we try to improve on this by trying to call once in two days or so. Mr. Big B has said in his blog that words matter most. So whenever we call up our dear ones lets make sure that we speak good words to make them happy. We live for very few days on this earth. So the goal should be to live a life without any excessive desires to posses material wealth, not to harm anyone, not to be egoistic, not to be jealous of others. Make as many good friends as possible. Or help as much as you can to your friends. lets do whatever job we have without any flaws. Sir M vishweshwaraya has told that “ don’t bother about what work you do. Even if your job is to clean a railway crossing, clean it in such a way that no other railway crossing in this world is as clean as yours!!!!!” .

Lets try to build a society with trust, Love and relationship.

I wish all the engineers of the nation a very Happy engineers day. Today it is the 148th birthday of the renowned engineer of the World Sir. M.V Vishveshwaraiah.

Today when I was having the bath in the morning, I thought of discussing about the topic disadvantage due to the improvement in Science & Tech. But the circumstances in today’s life of mine has made me to change it. Instead I will be discussing about the Love, Relations and friendship.

The main problem I always face while writing is “where to start?”. Its not that I don’t get point to start with, I get too many of them to start in a right direction. But I’ve to start from somehwhere.

Man is symbiotic creature. He cant exist and live life all alone. To share happiness, grief, thoughts, incidents etc he need to have friends, relatives, near and dear ones. In our life we meet so many people. Out of them, some just come and go. Some stay in touch in your life through some or other means. And some people will touch your heart, gain your faith, trust, love and remain in touch forever in life. It is the crystal clear friendship without any impurity in it. Why these people become so close to us is because they strike chord somewhere with us. It might be the similarity in lifestyle, thoughts, kind of thinking etc. or may be the similarity in background, or likings etc. we are ready to help them to our max possible extent. And in turn we get from them any help we need.

In the course of life we might come across some situation which will be a exam/test for such a flawless relationship. The question in that exam is only one and carries full marks. And the question is “Will the people involved in this relationship try to come out of this problem/misunderstanding and able to move forward?”. Its common to have situations where we wil have misunderstandings. Why we have such misunderstandings? Simple reason : “Expectation”. We will take the friends/relatives for granted. It is not something which we do intentionally. It happens without our awareness. We will start assuming that whatever we say/do will not affect the other person. But that is not the case always.(Remember the DCH? Misunderstanding between Aamir and akshaye khanna).

Not only misunderstandings. Sometimes it is the time which plays spoil sport. U might approach your dear ones at wrong moment of time, when he is upset or busy. And instead of trying to understand his/her situation, we feel bad for not having received right kind of response that you used to receive always. The need of hour here is to just let the time pass without thinking anything about the matter. Absorb your mind in some work and forget that such a thing actually happened at all. Because the more deep you think about the thing, the more negative thoughts you get and finally it wil not help anyone of us.

actually i would say that Misunderstandings give us the opportunity to show the Love towards each other. it is good to get them often so as to build a flawless Relaationship.

Compromise is key for long lasting relationship. If you think that there was no fault of yours and he should appologise, it is absolute egoism. Please do come out of it. Because the near and dear ones of you wouldn’t have been so close to you if they were so bad or cruel as you might think. Relationships are hard to build but easy to loose. And the foundation stone for long lasting relationship is “COMPROMISE”.

I got this SMS fwd from my friend jst a few mins ago before I started to scribble this post ( which really pushed me to write this) “ No heart in this world is Crystal clear, because all of them are scribbled by near and dear ones”. So cute. It means everyone is hurt by his/her near and dear ones atleast once in life.!!!
Now for my piece of thought-
“To misunderstand is to show the Love”

I read this Big B’s Blogs regularly. Different people have different opinion about him. I don’t know whether I Like him or not, but I admire him for various reasons.

The day the political outfit raised hue and cry about Jaya bachan’s comment over the Marathi language, Big B has written about how he and his family consider themselves as part of the state and never they have this thing in mind that they’re basically from U.P. He has listed all the facts to support his statement. Like how he, his wife, son and daughter in law are supporting various charities and other things in Maharashtra. Never had he listed the charities or other good deeds he has been carrying out anywhere before!!!

After all when I saw the video footage of this controversial stuff, I really felt that Jaya Bachan has nowhere tried to hurt sentiments of anyone. She just casually spoke something. So mean of the people who try to gain Political advantage out of such petty issues. It is well known fact that these type of hue and cry are raised to jst gain the media attention and create false impression that they are having great concern for their motherland. If u are really so much concerned why not go out and help people who really are in need rather than waste your time in making such nonsense stuff? Well I’m not trying to support Big B here. For that matter, Big B is just a subject here, I’m just blaming the system. Take any political Party or bloody idiot Politician, all have the same modus operandi to gain fame. Idiots. People of no degree and shame.

Big B mentions at the end that, he is listing all these charity work now because people are just trying to take advantage of his silence. That’s really very much true. We should not swallow any comments raised against us. It would’ve been better if he had let the people know about his charity as and when he used to do. That would have reduced the fuel to this protest against him atleast by bit. I know people would have blamed it as publicity stunt if he had tried to get the media attention for every task. But people would make comments on anything that you do in any way, it is just impossible to make sure that nobody raises any fingers at u for anything that u do. This applies to every one of us. Never we should bother about what people will think about us. That would just create turbulence in mind and wont help in anyway. You would be wasting your brain’s energy in thinking this negative aspect rather than using it on any useful stuff.

“Live live for yourself + in your own way = BE YOURSELF”

This blog post is nothing but the review of the movie “Mumbai Meri Jaan”

I saw this movie last weekend. There is no story as such. Madhavan and Soha ali khan are not any lead actors. The ending is very abrupt. But really worth watching for many reasons.

In this age when the mindless comedy and Love stories are coming out one after another like in a competition, this movie really tries to tingle your emotions. Man, I literally slept while watching movies like Jaane tu.. (absolute shit, or worst than shit. I get such bad words #@$% that my blood starts boiling when I get this thought that I wasted 1 and half hrs of my life in watching that shitty stuff. And more than that I wasted so much of electricity and contributed so much for the green house effect by keeping my system running for downloading the movie.), OSO( please don’t ask me the expansion, I can write lines of bad words about the movie in brackets like this rather than writing the full name of the movie), Bachana ye.. ( Fu*#) well let me not list any more, else I might go beyond the F-word now.

About the movie. The movie will show you the life of different classes of people living in Mumbai. Soha- TV reporter, Madhavan- guy who earns fortune as salary, but very down to earth, chauvinistic about the country, Irfaan khan- a petty tea vendor, etc. The main theme of the movie is Bomb blasts in the Local train that took so many lives and brought the entire Metro to stand still. Man, I was so much in tears to see how the people suffer due to the blast. They’ve even showed how hands,legs and other body parts of humans fly in air at the impact. The people who survived have no reason to be happy as most of them have one or other deformation in their body. Someone’s hand cut, leg, eye, etc….. I was crying inside myself to see the picture of people suffering. None of us might have tried to even think about how the aftermath might have been. It was nothing more than shocking news for us which came like this and went. None of us bothered to think about the cruelty, the injustice, sufferings of affected.

And the movie doesn’t tries to find out who was behind the inhuman act. It just wants to know us about the life in the backdrop of such a tragic incident. The way in which Madhavan gets a kind of Phobia to use the Local train after the incident, the misconception that the one more character in the movie (lets call X) gets about the muslims(that all of them are terrorists). Etc. its absolutely disheartening to see how the incident makes mockery of the very ideal of Madhavan. He gets hammered from everyone for not buying a vehicle of his own (though he can afford 10 cars atleast) and using the train instead, for rejecting the opportunities to go abroad and staying back in this country.

One more main thing the movie brings out is about the TV news channels. How money minded they are. None of their programs are natural ones as we might think. All artificially created sentimental stuff to pull the audience and earn more TRP’s. When the people suffer due to the blast, the news channel guys are busy to decide about creating a byte (that’s how they call program) of most sentimental story like showing the suffering of any most severely affected person…. So mean… I thought of wretching the neck of that bloody rascal…

Well I request each and every one of you to watch the movie at least once, either in theatres or in home.

My friends in software industry, this post is for all of you who are below the level of TL.

We all do the work assigned to us by our supervisor or Lead or whatever. It might so happen that you have started your career newly, or the project is new for u, or the lead is new guy etc., in short there is something new in atmosphere. So when your lead assigns the work to you, you might do it with great deal of excitement, enthusiasm etc etc…. and u might be well praised for your hard work by your TL. In order to get the same congratulatory words or praises we keep on accepting more and more work thus sacrificing our personal life. At the max what we might get is the words “You are really doing a great Job. Keep it up”.

Here is the trap. The sentence “You are really doing a great Job. Keep it up”. Actually means “ Come on my Bakra, u r making my life a pleasure” !!!!! you might get surprised, but this is the reality. You don’t get rewarded for taking more work. Instead u will be putting yourself into trouble. What will happen is that by accepting more & more work you will be increasing the expectation level of Your lead. Imagine that on some particular day you were unable to accept the work request for some reason, and this continues for some days like that. At this point, your lead will forget all the impression u created earlier, because u are failing to meet the expectation level u had set by yourself. Meanwhile the guy who had the track record of accepting the work in certain limits i.e not more or not less will get good feedback from your boss for his consistency level. This is one of the major setbacks. You will stand as looser both in your personal life ( i.e health, relationship, career growth plan etc) and work life.

Instead, work in smart way. Accept the job keeping in mind your limits and personal and other commitments. Whatever work you do, please let your supervisor be aware of that. This will help your supervisor to know what you are doing. Don’t be afraid to reject the work for any genuine reason. And do never suppress the Genuine reason while accepting work reluctantly.

You are really doing a great Job. Keep it up” = “ Come on my Bakra,” applies in every walk of life. In home also. If your neighbor thanks you for helping him/her it actually means “ Thank god , this Bakra made my life easy”. I’ll give you guys an homework, please recollect the incidents in your life where anyone has thanked you profusely for helping them. Just look whether the above analogy can be applied on them. Please exclude your near and dear ones like close friends, parents etc from this. Because it is mutual help that exists there.

I know its too early for me to comment about the software work life now ( I’m just 1year + 1 month old in this industry). I’m open to all critics. All kind of comments to correct myself is duly welcomed.

I wish each and everyone a happy Ganesh Chaturthi. May the Lord Ganesha remove all the obstacles, problems from our life in coming year.

I had been to our community’s (GSB) Convention centre Dwaraknath Bhavan in Bangalore where our Mutt will celebrate the festival by keeping Ganapathi for 5 days. Too good to watch the celebration, excitement and happiness in the atmosphere there. Not frequently will these kind of celebration happen there. Only selected few festivals we celebrate well and Ganesha chaturthi is one among them. So many people were gathered at the place that my eyes were jst rolling to every corner it is allowed.

Whenever I go to such places, I never get frustrated by the long queue for Prasad or lunch or anything. I’ll be jst looking at people or will be chanting hymn and will be moving with the queue. I have so many experiences to share with regarding this rush and queue at public places. I will mention a couple of them here. Once during dasara festival in Mysore myself and my friends had gone to the Dasara exhibition. There was this Laser show organized that day and after strolling in the exhibition grounds for some hours we came across the place where the laser show was about to start. There was some technical hitch because of which the show was getting delayed. We were standing at the last in that rush there, my friend Holla was not happy and was looking for a chance to go front. To his luck there was an announcement saying somebody called Kiran is needed at the backstage, this idiot Holla dint thought for a second and started cutting thru the rush saying loudly “ Ramesh, myself Kiran here, I’m struck in this audience rush. Mahesh and suresh are also with me here… we are coming there.. wait…” he held my hand started pulling me thru the crowd, I pulled my another friend. Holla meanwhile kept repeating the lines and within fraction of seconds we were at the very front, jst next to stage !!! man I could never forget this.

Today also I imitated the same idea partially here. Ma and father were standing way ahead in the long queue for Prasad. The idea struck my brain and I just asked excuse from people saying “ yes mom, coming… wait, stay there… don’t come back… “ and started to move forward in rush, people thought I’m gonna talk to my ma over some urgent issue and dint mind to let me move ahead of them!! I just enjoyed it….

You need to do such crazy stuff to have some thrill and fun in life.

Such an irregular blogger I’m. Entering a post after 3 days. Thank you Tata Indicom for giving such a wonderful Internet service which will not be available at the night when it is most needed, the lazy soul inside me will always be greatful to you for allowing it to sleep early.

Disclaimer : This Post is exclusively for the audience who belong to fixed salary Class like me and who have just started to earn. Any resemblance with the reader is highly appreciated and the author would be glad to receive the review for this post from them.
All My-Dad-is-rich-businessman people’s son, please don’t waste your time in reading this if you have come to this page by googling for something else.

Guys ( and gals, please no controversy here), when you go to purchase any Electronic Gadget like Mobile, iPod etc, have you ever felt like some new voice talking exclusively to you? The voice will always be saying “ You have to pay so much for such a small plastic+metallic piece?, think again vishwas, see whether mom or dad will sponsor. This will eat your hard earned money dude, what are you doing? Gone mad or what?”

Our dream of buying that cute new electronic device becomes foolishness all of sudden. What’s more, it will even fall to the level of “plastic+metallic piece” from “cute new electronic device”. Not only that, if you can recollect you’ll realize that your brain will be working like a super fast computer calculating the Pros and cons of either buying or not buying the device. So much so that within fraction of seconds your duffer dumb brain (like how you’ll be scolding it when it finds difficult to answer something in exam, or not help you in doing fast calculation when really needed) would be ready to do a MS power point presentation inside your tiny head with all the permutation and combination, probabilities,(you name the toughest maths topics and it’ll do) of going for different model which is comparatively cheaper, or even not to buy the device at all. My brain even goes one step further to show me the snapshot of my bank balance after purchasing the device in internet banking. Simply put, I can say like this, the brain will be occupied by the spirit of the brain of any dead mathematical genius.

Now for all of my friends who agree with the above listed symptoms, please relax. Just remember one thing that “nothing in this world will last forever”. Even we won’t last forever. So if you feel a great desire to buy that dream device from a long time, please go for it. Because I’m sure every one of us would’ve come to the decision of buying the device after lots of thinking. What goes wrong is that we will have wrong info that it would be available for damn cheap cost. I still remember my case when I recently went to Apple istore to buy the iPod Nano. All my idiot friends around me told me that it won’t be more than 4 or 5k. And to add to my bad fortune, I was not able to find the cost of it in Indian Rupees in any website. So I just decided to pay a visit finally after thinking for many days. Gosh! It was 7k man. But I was already so deeply obsessed with it that I could hardly drag my feet towards the door. Finally I buyed it. But believe me, every moment I look at my Pod, I feel so special. I become happy that I buyed this with my own money after 1year of slogging my skin off in office. Down the future, our taste won’t remains same. We will hardly find time to even purchase these stuffs. These won’t look anything more than just a toy for us then. So really I feel happy on investing in going with my dream and buying that now.

Hope this would have tried to put an end to the endless question your brain is throwing at you.

I missed out entering the blog yesterday again. I don’t want to go on listing the reasons as what really important is to accept mistakes and correct it rather than feel sorry looking at the list of reasons. I hate myself feeling “oh-no-I could’ve-avoided-this” stuff.

I read this article “speaking Tree” in TOI. It spoke about the statement made by our proud gold winning hero Abhinav Bindra. When he was asked how is feeling after winning the gold medal he said he is feeling emptiness. It is like you have climbed the mountain and there is nothing left to achieve. I still wonder why he said like that as he can still compete in the coming Olympic tournaments(couple of them atleast). But I agree with the fact that one will feel complete emptiness when he achieves what he dreamt of. The article also said that it feels happier when you are still in road to achieve your goals and dreams than after achieving\reaching there!!!!!!!

The article continues further and puts light on fact that how people nowadays adopt foolish way to gain fame and name in short time. It seems a person tried to enter the famed Guinness Book of World Record by drinking large volume of water in one sitting. But died in the course. The article quotes Albert einstein’s statement “The value of a man should be seen in what he gives rather than what he receives”.

What you can make out from the abstract of the article above is that it is not important whether you are a famous person or not. But whether have you given anything to this society so that the people will recognize you even after your death. People who became famous and are still remembered are those who had given something or other to this society. Tell me whether it is easy for you to remember the personalities like Sir M. Vishveswaraya, Abdul Kalam, Jamshedji Tata, Homi Jehangir baba, Vikram Sarabhai, Ramanujam, or some person who has got his name recorded in the Guinness Book? Both of them are famous, but only difference is that the former are the people who dedicated their life for social service and the later are those who were just concerned with making name.

Take my example itself here. Yesterday I dint posted blog because I write the blog first in MS Word and then paste it to my blogspot as it helps me to identify and rectify any grammatical errors or typo in my script. After I had completed 75% suddenly something happened and I clicked on “NO” option when it prompted me to save the doc. So dejected I was that I decided not to post the blog again by writing from scratch. But I had read a long back that there was this scientist in America(i forgot his name :( ) whose house caught fire accidentally and all his research work was reduced to ash in the mishap. When someone tried to console him, he smiled back saying that he is happy that he can start all fresh from scratch by removing all the mistakes and errors and improving the work still more!!!!! Well this is where the difference between the common man and a great person is.

so finally i broke my resloution. couldn't write the blog entry yesterday. Well it wasn't intentional, i had opened inetrnet to write blog but there was some prob in net and it was getting disconnected frequently. after half an hour the power itself went off and i retired to bed.

i could say a lot of reason like above to defend myself and to prove that i'm right. This is what confuses me. A year back i was watching this "MUKTA" serial of T.N Seetaram. In that a guy makes this statement "There is nothing called as truth in this world, you can twist the situation to prove that you are right or whatever you say is truth". Confused eh?! well let me explain the context in which he makes this statement.

The guy in my discussion above is actually born and brought up in a poor but very respected and traditional family. when he is of some 20 years age he takes up the shortcut root to earn money in order to eradicate the problems created in his house due to poverty. He joins the gang of a local goonda doing some petty illegal acrivites like Roll call, blackmail, threatning etc. But he makes sure that his family members doesnt come to know about this. But his elder sis somehow comes to know abt her bro's job and questions him. She tries to tel him that whatever he is doing is not right. but the guy explains her that, "for him helping out the family from the problems was his aim. How could you ask me to just watch all the problems that the family is facing and do nothing? wont that be mistake? with my money i was able to cure the disease that parents were suffering, clear the debts etc. is that not a good part? Last but not least, if he had not taken up that job, that goonda would have got it done by someone else, so basically it means that all those illegal activities would have occured somehow. There is nothing called as truth in this world, all depend on how you shape the fact to defend whatever work you have been doing". Her sis gets really shocked. And me more than her...

This has got such a impact on me. i find it so dificult to judge anything as good or bad. if someone is affected by me, intentionally or not, if i try to defend myself i feel that i'm twisting the truth for my advantage. it has really impaired my judging capabality.

may be my blogs have become a overdosage of philosophy. i must think of new ideas to write the blogs. but i never think abot the topic before starting to write. its just like giving pen to my mind which goes on writing its thoughts.

From the day I joined my company, I am always a kind of dissatisfied person. Basically because I am put into testing stream where there is nothing much challenging to do. It hurt me a lot lot lot given the fact that I had a lot of dreams in me of being into any development tech.

Day in and day out I feel very bored with work. As I said there is nothing much challenging to do. But when I take a look at the world around me, I see so many people daily who do the same stuff daily. Each and everyday. How should be they feeling?
A bus conductor whose task is to issue tickets and unnecessarily travel between two points daily, the driver who drives the bus, the blue collared labours… so many people. The list just grows bigger.

Our life wont run if these people don’t do their job. Comes to absolute stand still. And none of their work is as simple to do as mine. Still I cry to get better thing. So strange the life is. It has been just a year that I started working and it is really to early for me to say this. But I realize that it is the human nature to desire for the next level the moment the god grants him his current wish.

Really the animals are far better than us. Take the example of dog. The moment you throw a piece of bread at it, it’ll come with you ready to serve as slave for rest of its life. Will it ever ditch you when it comes across any other person who is still richer than you? Or will it ever ask you to get good food?( like how we ask for pay hike).

Having said above words, I myself am still not able to follow the above piece of reality in my life. Somehow the mind gets back to its regular duty of initiating the debate of unsatisfaction. I’m also a human being, and naturally I have the desires in my mind. And as I had said before, you cant change your god given personality traits totally. But you need to constantly try to atleast shape them. And I’m in process of that.

I wish God will help in my mission.

One more Sunday came and went. I wonder why Sundays are so fast like blink your eyes-day will end.

Nothing much happened today which could ignite my thought process to write blog. Except for a early morning dirty Breaking news in a news channel saying that the Police craked down on a group of people trying to do Conversion. (of course to Christianity, bloody hell). Don’t know what’s wrong with the society.

Whenever I make such statement like “don’t know what is wrong with the society”, I remember a scene in one Kannada Movie that I saw when I was small. (may be Beladingala Bale, not sure) there a person will tell to Anantnag about the 4 phases of life cycle. I try to recollect here. It seems every human being’s life passes through 4 phases or cycles constantly. In 1 phase, the human being thinks that- only he is correct in this world and nobody else. All are incorrect. In another phase, he gets to think that his assumption was wrong and all are correct in this world, except himself. In another phase he again feels that he was wrong and thinks that nobody is correct. In the final phase he thinks that all including himself are correct.

The timing, duration, appearance of each of the above mentioned phases vary from person to person. That is why I dint mentioned as 1st phase, 2nd phase….. But what is common in every person is that the Final phase would be the same, that is “all including myself are correct” this is because we would be correcting ourselves continuously. And finally we say that whatever we had thought all these days is not correct. The cycle keeps on repeating after the final phase is reched.

You might be feeling strange about this piece of info. May be because you are hearing this for the first time and so never had any chance to correlate your thoughts to the 4 phases. But this has had v.high impact on my life. Almost all the incidences in my life I’ve correlated to this.

Coming back to the Conversion issue. Well I was fuming with anger and blaming myself for living life amidst these bastards. But a thought passed thru my mind. Why frm so many days I’m blaming the society? Am I passing thru the phase “ all are incorrect except myself” ?

Yet to find answer. Lots of turbulence going on inside me. As of now, the always-short-Sunday has ended and the snoring sound of my dad is repeatedly reminding me of the pleasure of sleeping. Here I’m going to do the job now which any human being and animal in world will love to do -“sleeping”.

I wish each and everyone of you a very happy Krishna Janmashtami. May the Lord bless all of us.

When I was small, Krishnashtami would mean Pooja in evening followed by Prasad. I would be waiting for the moment where dad would jst finish the pooja and distribute the Prasad. After that, I can eat how much ever I want.

Gradually I started realizing the importance of this auspicious day. Every time I here any Krishna-killing-demon story, I would be just elated with my mind and soul appreciating the wit of Lord Krishna. How lucky and blessed the people of his kingdom were to have a god as their King.

Now come to today’s world. We are ruled by so called political leaders who are none other than Kansas and Jarasandhs of Dwaparyug to be frank. Everyone is hell bent on looting the common man and national wealth. So much so that nothing is bad to them. I bet none of them have even a small inch of conscience in them. They will go to any extent to amass wealth. It is the time now for the Lord Vishnu to take 11th avatar to kill these 21st century demons and save us from their hands.

Just take a look at the incidences happening around us. The UPA govt ruling the nation has filed a Case in Supreme court questioning the very existence of Lord Rama and the Dhanushkoti Bridge which played the role of connector between the Rameshwaram of Tamil Nadu and Lanka. The multi-crore rupee project proposes to provide a shorter sea route from Rameshwaram to Sri Lanka. The ASI whose task is to protect the historical monuments across the nation, In an affidavit filed before the apex court rejected the claim of the existence of the Ram Sethu bridge in the area where the project was under construction. What bull shit is this? Are these people expecting the Lord Ram’s birth certificate to be produced to prove that he existed? How crap.

We all also know that Lord Krishna used to rule a magnificent place called Dwaraka. History has it that the Lord built this city with the help of God’s Architect Vishwakarma after claiming the Land from god of sea. But after the disappearance of Lord ( yes they say Lord disappeared. I got this piece of information from google “Lord Krishna was disillusioned with the fraternal killing among the Yaduvanshis. He went to a forest near Somnath in Bhalka Tirth to meditate. Jara, a hunter mistook the lord's feet to be a deer and accidentally shot him with the arrow. Lord Krishna's spirit left for heaven. Bhagwan Krishna's disappearance marks the beginning of the current debauched age, also known as Kaliyug.The great sage Vyas then wrote the famous 'Bhagawad Puran' to save the heritage and miracles of Lord Krishna. The story of Lord Krishna has since been passed from generation to generation.”) the city was submerged under the ocean. Everyone knew this but nothing much was done till 1983 when the respected S.N Rao undertook the mission to do the deep sea excavation to find out the reality by making use of Hi-Tech modern day equipments. Thanks to his determination, after a prolonged excavation and research of more than 10 years, it is internationally proved that Lord Krishna existed in our nation and used to rule a beautiful city called Dwaraka.

But my concern over here is that how many of us Hindus know about this great work of S.N Rao? Of course we are not to be blamed totally here. The so called secular Govt which used to rule the nation then, hardly did anything to bring this to the notice of common people. So it is obvious that this great work of the Mr. Rao remains confined to the books. Shame on us to have such rulers. Shame on us to be so callous about these great works. Just because of our inattitude towards this, we are witnessing this stupid affidavits being filed in Apex court by the bloody “secular Govt”. I’m not a Hindu party activist or a member of any such outfits like VHP or RSS. I’m expressing my concerns in a true manner over here.

Hope the Lord takes one more avtar and save this world from the evil effects of Kalyug.

Hare rama hare rama rama rama hare hare
Hare Krishna hare Krishna Krishna Krishna hare hare

Actually I am very tired today. Thought of not writing, but then as I said its difficult to break the resolution after u make it in blog.

My friend had forwarded a email to me today. It was a real incidence where a husband looses his beloved wife after a money-minded,mean, inhumanly doctor and his hospital carries out a laproscopic surgery on her. I was so sad after reading the mail.

This is just a small example. Remember the movie “Rang de basanti” ? well who will not. In that movie, police carries out lathi charge on the peacefully protesting people at the behest of a mean minded politician. Why I am quoting these examples is that, there are so many situations which common people like us face each day where we could hardly do anything. It’s a hard reality of life.

A autorickshaw wallah shouting at you and demanding the “fare” as shown by tampered meter, a traffic police person asking u to cough up bribe even though you have all the concerned docs, a police person not recording FIR for your stolen mobile saying that it is a very small crime to be reported, telephone dept not giving the phone line connection even after visiting their office 100 times, Govt gas agency not accepting your request to give a new connection, etc etc., These are just some of the problems which we face very oftenly. What I feel at my heart is “I cant help”. So many times I’ve had this thrust to hit the person who causes the problem. But you cant. Just because you don’t have the three imp things to live in this society- Money, Power, Influence. Without any one of these, you can hardly dream yourself being free from such problems.

Coming back to the husband who lost his wife. Poor guy, he can hardly do anything to get justice. The quack doctor (bloody rascal, **###), his hospital, the health dept, minister all will be hand in hand. His drive to get justice wil be crushed at the root levels by all the above people. Tell me what he should do. How much dearth he might have felt to kill the doc, the staff and all those involved. But he cant. Y? simple, the lack of 3 imp things I listed out above.

A intense person like me finds it difficult to even imagine such situations. I am actually a kind of person who shouted and raised voice against my own lecturer at class for wrongly scolding me (but I appologised later as he was too soft a guy to be scolded). So whenever I come across such incidences, I hardly react externally. My emotions (anger coupled with helplessness) make me cry easily, which I don’t want anyone to know. So I never react.

So depresing to see people killing others of their own species to make money and feed their family. What kind of life we are leading?

21/8/2008

Today promotions were announced in our company. If it brought cheers to some, it also brought tears to some others. This year’s promotions were not applicable to me as I was jst a year old in the org.
Though it was not applicable to me, I was deeply engrossed in thinking about that day when even I would be in the list of expected. I fear not to open it myself. Just yesterday I wrote that we shouldn’t be deterred if we don’t get something which we had dreamt for. But here I’m today, exactly opposite of my own words. What I would say is that, no matter whatever philosophical stuffs u read, or hear, it will not bring a total change in us. I am not telling that we shouldn’t stop reading or hearing such spiritual or philosophical stuff. But I believe that, we are made up of a set of personality traits which will decide what we are and how we are. So at the max, we can try to shape up these personality traits as per what the philosophy says. But cant totally change it. If that happens, one day in this world everyone will be alike with just good people around and nobody else. The police, army, scientists who develop weapons, etc., will loose their job as there would be nobody to kill or detained in prison.

One small example to explain what my fear about the promotions actually is. Think that there are 2 persons working under same boss, Mr. A and Mr. B. A is very sensitive and composed. He works really hard with no issues to be pin pointed against him. But he never reports to his boss about the work what he does everyday. He goes to his boss only if there is any genuine need. Wheras Mr. B is dead opposite in nature. He makes sure that his boss will come to know about each and every minute work he does everyday. So when the D day (day to declare the promotions) comes, the boss will promote B. Tell me what u think about this? Who has done mistake if any. The most common answer would be to say that B is wrong. He shows off about his work etc etc… but what I would say is that, u cant totally put Mr. B in a spot lik that. He has that personality trait in him to make sure that his boss is appraised of whatever work he does. Whereas A lacks it. Or can we say that the boss himself is wrong? He should observe who does how much work everyday right? But that also wont be 100% right. Because he has got his own work to do apart from judging his teammates.

Well, ultimately I would just say that nothing is in our hand. All fate. We should not get deterred by these. But still it is very difficult to get over. But remember one thing “ Failure is not falling down and accepting the defeat. It is the refusal to get up and fight”

I would just say this "GOD". Such was the experience that i had the day after i wrote my first blog. No, i am not saying that my blog was a "mass hit" in a way that many many ppl posted their comments as it happens for celebrities blog. The experience i'm talking about here is the one that i had for myself.Ya i know, you might wonder what it might be. There are a lot actually. The main thing that happened was that the whole day i kept thinking what new i shall write in the blog today? :) Beleive me or not, i kept visiting my blog like a guest several time. Each time i read my blog, i felt a different me. Actually i was able to see myself in front of me !!!!! I never thought that i could think in this way, write in this way. (Damn it, why there is no auto spell check or grammar chek like the one we have in MS Word here??? its really irritating to do all of them manuallY)

And second main thing was the change in the thinking level. I started thinking each and every thing ( ......... or many things atleast ) in detailed manner, why because is that i had this thought in mind that "If there is any special in this happening to me, i could probably find out the reason behind it so that i can post it in the blog!!!!" Really, such was the impact of blogging.

And last but not least, i would challenge any one that if you make any resolution and post it in blog you will think 100 times before you decide upon going against it. i wont go much detailed on this. Because you should experience this by yourself rather than reading my experience.

I know that this excitement what i experienced today will not remain same in the long run. But out of the points which i've listed above i strongly beleive that the one that is going to last forever is the feeling of See-yourself-in-front-of-u feeling. I wont be lying if i say that i've found answer to my question why-waste-time-blogging in my debut blog entry.

finally a bit of philosophy,(from trusted source. the source keeps on changing, so i dont like to mention it everytime.) we should remember that anything in this world is not permanent. ANYTHING. so we shouldn't regret if we fail to acheive something. Because those who acheive that also wont be all happy as we might think. You might get something else in place of what you actually dreamt for. But you shouldnt be unhappy about that. why because is that our aim should be to find the divine god in whatever work we do. Not the materialistic pleasure like Money, fame etc. Beacuse we should remember that what we get or what we acheive is not really done be us, it is the gift of the almighty. I am not saying that we shouldnt give up our effort in acheiving anything thinking that god is going to do it himself. Instead, we shouldnt be unhappy if were unable to acheive what we dreamt for inspite of our best efforts.And we should accept whatever he gives and should try to see him in doing that work. That is what our ultimate goal should be in our life.

day 1 in blogosphere

i really dont know how i changed my mindset from being why-people-waste-time-writing-blog to why-not-try-it-out-myself. I read in Bangalore times that Junior B forces his father Big B to write blog daily. Then also i was lik nah, why would a busy person like AB would waste his time to write blog. But then, i decided to google to check out once.... God !!! he really writes. and that too in short time breaks he gets in between his shots. Amazing. and whats still more amazing is that ppl wait for him to enter the blog for every day. I was really stunned, Bowled actually.

So jst had this thought in my mind for a couple of days. What actually u get by blogging. But then came to conclusion that there are lots of things which we do in our life daily which doesnt gives us anything. so why waste time in thinking what i get by blogging ( i thouht i would be wasting my time blogging, but infact i started wasting time in thinking "why blogging" :) ).

This is how i entered the blogosphere. I hve made resolution on my first day of blogosphere that, i would never miss our entering blog on any day unless its really impossible for me ( cos i dont have access to entertainment sites in my office, well let me not list out for what all things i dont have access).

God, wish me all the best to keep up my resolution.