Don’t know why, from last few days I am getting a feeling that I will be rolled off from my current project. What is the reason, why I’ve started feeling like this, I realy don’t know. But somewhere in my mind I am feeling this frm last couple of days. Time will only have the answer and I’ve no other option but to wait and watch.
Feeling very bad that I will not be able to attend the marriage function of Seshu – my mentor. Let me try my level best by asking sandeep to come with me. If not I will have to drop the idea. What is most annoying fact is that the 2 guys who were extremely benefited by Seshu are not even showing any interest to come to the function. Man is such a selfish animal in this universe. I might have also done something like this, but I pray to god that never I should become like this – taking help frm someone and later forgetting about that person.
Lots of change happened last couple of days. I left going to gym in my office in morning. Was feeling too uncomfortable when I used to come back to the bay from gym. Also I was finding it very difficult to manage the work. So I have started going to the gym near my house in evening. This has provided me more time to work in office and also I feel that it has been very effective in doing exercise in this gym under a trainer than doing it myself without any guidance in office. But one more task I’m not able to accommodate in my life – reading for CAIIB. Don’t know why, all the interest, force whatever I had in me while reading for JAIIB is not present in me now. I feel very difficult to concentrate and read. Don’t know what is the reason.
One area in which I feel that I’m not skilled is making large number of friends. Sometimes back in a fwd mail that I received, there was some thing by which we were able to find out about ourselves. In that it was mentioned that I am too choosy or careful when it comes to select friends. I feel like it is very much true. One more fact is that I find it extremely difficult to cope up if someone among my close friends does something unexpected. I cant tolerate only. So much I have tried to improve upon this area. But not successful so far. But I have a miraculously high power to resist if someone in work area is trying to compete with me and in the process is trying to pull me down. I take it very light and try to give that person back whenever the time comes.
Everything in this universe undergoes a change. In other words, the things are cyclic in nature. But not that when everytime the cycle repeats, all the things in different stages has to remain same. J
I saw TL’s new baby photos today in office. I started feeling very nice about it. How great you will feel when you see your own little cute soft sensitive and extremely (I’m dying for words) delicate baby in front of you. I guess it is the most beautiful moment any parent in this world can have. I don’t know whether I will even take my eyes off from the baby even for a short fraction of second. Somethings in this nature are un describable.
