What is meant by Fair?

I started writing something, but now I’m writing something totally different.

Whenever I delete a lot while writing blog, it is very clear that my mind is neutral. I’m trying to hide myself frm some reality of life. Or I’m trying not to think about something. Yes and I feel it is very true.

One of my colleagues was badly hurt by corporate world politics today. “Why nobody is fair here” was the question raised by her. At that moment of time, I dint say anything to prolong the discussion. Since I was in no mood to fall into that thinking mode. But just wanted to find out the meaning of word “fair”. I guess I had discussed about this earlier also. There was one serial called Muktha which used to come in Kannada TV channel couple of years back. A guy develops underworld contacts for the sake of making money and hopes to take out his family from poverty. When his elder sis comes to know about this, tries to convince him to come out of it since they are not good people. The guy asks what is meant by good/fair? It all depends on how you view it. In my view, seeing my family suffer from poverty is not fair, so I do this. There is nothing definitely called as Good/fair in this world.

I don’t want to argue on the boy’s view. But I’ve got instances to support it. The priests at Murdeswar temple, unhappy with the govt decision to handover the temple admin to some swamiji, hatched a plan to tarnish the image of him. They tried to create photo’s / porn videos of swamiji and circulate it in order to bring him down. Who is bad here? Priests can say that it was injustice to snatch the temple from them. Hence they did this. Who is fair here? Take the example of Nityananda swamiji. I read some comment in a newspaper where the writer expressed his support for the swamiji saying that it is nothing bad to have sexual desire for a human being since it is as necessary as air,water & food. Who is fair here? There might be several examples in our own life, among our friends or relatives or family members itself. We might have felt bad at several occasions. But how you will judge who is fair there and who is bad?

Every person will have a different background. Each one of us are born and brought up in different environment. Whatever we learn rite from our childhood, Creates a person inside us who will tell us this is bad or this is good. We call this decision from inner self as conscience. Just to give a simple example, there are some people who use the rest rooms so cleanly that you will never know if it was used by someone before. These people will never like to make it dirty since they feel it is bad to do so. But majority of people never bother about the cleanliness of the rest room once they are done using it. Reason: I’m done with my job, why to worry about anyone coming next. There is nothing wrong the person has done. It is his conscience which feels that it is never bad to do so. Because in his childhood, nobody told him it is wrong. And the person inside him got trained that way. I don’t mean to say that it is entirely parents responsibility to train their kids. There are kids who take wrong path even though their parents are from decent background and vice versa.

We can still train the person inside us. But it is not easy as before. We might not change our conscience decisions until something happens. Emperor Ashoka was always fascinated about expanding his kingdom. Never was he moved by seeing the dead bodies of the slain soldiers. But the deadly battle of Kalinga changed his mind. Suddenly he was shattered seeing the huge loss of human lives because of that war. He was a completely changed man thereafter. So much so that for the rest of his life, his only aim was to improve the living condition of his people by providing better infrastructure and also to propagate peace around the world. Thus it took a deadly war to change the mind of a human being.

"I'm so happy that you all are coming to my marriage" said my friend cum colleague while going to temple in the morning. Today being Ram navami, we decided to visit the hanuman temple near our office. Why I remembered this suddenly now is that the statement is not just name sake one. She really meant it. There was 1000watt glow in her face when she told that.

I got a mail today which explained about how people with different sunshine behave at workplace. After reading each line I was laughing since it was like a mirror to my behavior. The fact being I had myelf so many times thought that I’m like this. So when that mail clearly listed them out, there was no option for me but to laugh while I read that.

Suddenly my love towards my sister is growing like anything. She is just brilliant girl. I want her to get into some excellent software company. I feel like giving her whatever I get as prize for myself. Last time I got a big 20bucks Cadbury choc and my stupid bro gave it away to our neighbour’s kid. I felt like slapping him, I wanted tot give that to my sister. Just yesterday I got a pen from our client in office. I’m just dying to go to her place so that I can give it to her and see smile on her face. I hope I’m not greedy here trying to create an impression that I’m the only guy behind her super success. But whatever it is, she is my sister. And I will do whatever for her to become successful.

Never it is easy to do anything in life. unless it is forced on you. I feel like I will do this, I will do that. But unless I initiate that task, the days just slip out like anything without our notice. I am planning to take up the certification in capital markets, but I’ve not yet got my photo scanned which is the only pending task. I’ve been carrying the photo in my shirt pocket from last 3 days hoping that if I carry it in shirt pocket, I will not forget. But unfortunately I’m not able to do it yet. But my target is this week. And no matter what, I will get this done this weekend.

Proffessional Blogger :D

After a long time again...... :)

I'm smiling a lot... reason being i've customised my blog site for the first time after i started blogging. Always used to wonder how come people have got so much of time to customize their blog page. Now i know the secret behind it. Creativity has got no limits. This applies to both - the blogger as well as blog site developers. The blog site has got so much to offer for our varying taste and demand. Only thing is that we bloggers need to have enough time to utilise them. Well finally i managed that ;)....

i always feel that creativity creates a pressure. Take a simple example -Titan watch's design development center. You got creativity, you join there. But how far your creativity will work? At certain point of time, your ideas will drain. What next?? Nature's law of permanency - "Nothing is permanent in life ". Got to move on. There is no answer.

Today the creative me wanted to do this long pending task of redesigning the web page which describes me in the www forum. I never believe in Orkut or its rival FB. It only helps to keep in touch with even your unwanted friends. But never lets you express yourself completely. Of recently, they have been largely used for conveying about your big achievements more than anything else. "XXXX now enjoying in London", "YYY having New year blast". Fine, agreed that you are having blast or you are at some corner of world, but why publish that?? And there are his so called fans or friends who want to comment on that. More out of jealousy than true admiration or friendshipness.( Remember the reaction of Farhan and Raju after finding out that Rancho is first sem topper in 3I??)
Today evening again i made a frustrated attempt to realise my dreams of owning a house in Blore. SBI's Home Loan exhibition was truly good. But i'm very urgent in realising my dream i guess. Need to wait still more i feel.
This week there is going to be a chance of me becoming a white paper presenter if Creative team junta in my project feels i've it in me. Presented a abstract already. Keeping fingers crossed.

during a lunch break in office

a quick blog

Never thought that i would see this in my life. I was waiting for lift to go to cafe for lunch in office. One new joiner girl(damn innocent) came to me and asked a doubt related to her work. i immediately came to know she has commited a mistake. But knowing her nature, i tuk care not to let her know that. But my reply made her realise she has done mistake. Her eyes turned from white to red and then became moist. She couldnt speak and nor did i. I was so aghast. It tuk few secs for me to realise whether such innocent ppl will be there.

I pray to god to make that girl strong enough to deal with this bad corporate world. God please give her all the strength, will power and knowledge to deal with this world.

Unconcious and concious part of brain

Needless to say that after another long gap this blog is being written by me.

I was explaining one of the concept of accountancy to my friend cum colleague in office. The subject is part of JAIIB exam. Since it was long gap after I passed the exam, I had to go thru that chapter and then explain her about it. We chose a conference room to discuss on the subject.

While explaining, I was telling the things which I never realized that I know. I mean I was explaining in a very simple manner. When I read it alone, I never conceptualized it like that. But to explain it, I was telling in that manner. It indeed helped me to realize how beneficial it would be if you share your knowledge. I think when we understand something, the unconscious part of our brain would grasp the concept. When we want to get answer to something related to that part, an action gets triggered from conscious part of the brain which invokes and gets the answer from the unconscious part. What lies in that unconscious part will not be known to us till we discuss or interact with someone about it and speak on that. The key to that understanding would come out then. Indeed god’s creation is so complex!!.

Last few days was devastating for the people of N.Karnataka, & AP. The floods created havoc in the region. 11 districts got affected in Kar and the loss is estimated to be 20k Crores! It was very sad to see people climbing on whatever they could to save their life. The sadest thing of all was that even Mantralayam was flooded. Swamiji was being airlifted from there to Raichur. It was really horrible. When I type this, I tend not to write much of the sufferings people faced. The reason being that I cannot console myself. My ma watched a documentary today in local news channel in which they told that Brindavan in Mantralayam was not affected by the floods! A real miracle. I was really damn happy when I heard that. What made me happier was the generousness that people of Bangalore and corporate are showing. The CM of Kar was able to collect 100 Crores in a single day by doing padayatra. Hope he will do more such padayatras to collect more funds as he announced. Let me not get into politics that central Govt is playing with our state. It is indeed cheap to see people taking advantage of even situations like these. As always I pray to the god to teach the guilty the lesson and also help the victims of Natural calamity.

Going to bed now. Good Night.

Don’t know why, from last few days I am getting a feeling that I will be rolled off from my current project. What is the reason, why I’ve started feeling like this, I realy don’t know. But somewhere in my mind I am feeling this frm last couple of days. Time will only have the answer and I’ve no other option but to wait and watch.

Feeling very bad that I will not be able to attend the marriage function of Seshu – my mentor. Let me try my level best by asking sandeep to come with me. If not I will have to drop the idea. What is most annoying fact is that the 2 guys who were extremely benefited by Seshu are not even showing any interest to come to the function. Man is such a selfish animal in this universe. I might have also done something like this, but I pray to god that never I should become like this – taking help frm someone and later forgetting about that person.

Lots of change happened last couple of days. I left going to gym in my office in morning. Was feeling too uncomfortable when I used to come back to the bay from gym. Also I was finding it very difficult to manage the work. So I have started going to the gym near my house in evening. This has provided me more time to work in office and also I feel that it has been very effective in doing exercise in this gym under a trainer than doing it myself without any guidance in office. But one more task I’m not able to accommodate in my life – reading for CAIIB. Don’t know why, all the interest, force whatever I had in me while reading for JAIIB is not present in me now. I feel very difficult to concentrate and read. Don’t know what is the reason.

One area in which I feel that I’m not skilled is making large number of friends. Sometimes back in a fwd mail that I received, there was some thing by which we were able to find out about ourselves. In that it was mentioned that I am too choosy or careful when it comes to select friends. I feel like it is very much true. One more fact is that I find it extremely difficult to cope up if someone among my close friends does something unexpected. I cant tolerate only. So much I have tried to improve upon this area. But not successful so far. But I have a miraculously high power to resist if someone in work area is trying to compete with me and in the process is trying to pull me down. I take it very light and try to give that person back whenever the time comes.

Everything in this universe undergoes a change. In other words, the things are cyclic in nature. But not that when everytime the cycle repeats, all the things in different stages has to remain same. J

I saw TL’s new baby photos today in office. I started feeling very nice about it. How great you will feel when you see your own little cute soft sensitive and extremely (I’m dying for words) delicate baby in front of you. I guess it is the most beautiful moment any parent in this world can have. I don’t know whether I will even take my eyes off from the baby even for a short fraction of second. Somethings in this nature are un describable.

little steps

I had an opportunity to go thru many forwards today which created sort of multiple thoughts in my mind. If I had gone to bed without allowing it to come out, I would have missed another opportunity to realize my potential to think on some thing substantial.

“Faith dog” – a dog which has only two legs and can still walk like a human. Yes, sounds unbelievable but true. When it was born, the owner of the dog decided to put it to “permanent sleep”. But god had some thing great in store for it. The dog was buyed by another owner who decided to name it as faith and made up a goal which none of us could ever think in our dreams – “Teach it how to walk”. Of course she had to struggle for good 6months to make it learn that. But now her effort has been paid off. The dog walks like any normal human without any slightest difficulty. The owner has left the teaching job to be with the dog and take it out all the day. The dog has already appeared in various TV shows and also about to come in Harry potter movie. What it proves flatly is -“Nothing is impossible”

In another instance I saw in TV program that a young handicap boy who has congenital defect of calcium deficiency. All his bones were very brittle when he was born and hence suffered multiple fractures even by a gentle touch. But her mother was not ready to give up. She nurtured her kid and also taught him how to read and write. He can now lie down on floor and write. He can also read quran in Arabic language.

I don’t want to say that we are no match compared to them. My ma tells that such handicap people will be gifted some extraordinary thing by god. I don’t say that we don’t have such thing with us. We have to realise it. Just small approach towards something will help us to reach the aim. So what is important is the aim and then the work towards it. Yes this is what I wanted to understand from those two instances. None of them got the end results by miracle. The lady had to teach the dog every day for 6months and the mother had to take immense care of the kid who would get hurt just by a touch. What went in their advantage is the aim and the little constant steps towards that aim. We will realise our gift only if we follow the similar approach. Little steps towards the aim actually is the key to open that gift.